the. uprising.

so..today started the uprising weekend. formerly known as diciple now! i had classes this morning and then traveled back home to be a leader for this weekend 'adventure' that i have been attending for atleast 5 years as a student and now a leader..making this my second time leading. i am with the 10th grade girls and we are stationed at my house..which is very nice :). we are being led by Matt Papa. he is an incredible worship leader and i'm happy to be apart of worship with him. i worked with him some this summer as i staffed with Student Life. he was our camp worship leader for several camps. tonight it was nice to see hearts open up to the Lord and witness teenagers getting glimpes of how awesome the Lord is. the Lord has been teaching me so much and i feel so blessed to have felt so close to him in the past few weeks. the situation which i have been hurting so much over has led to some incredible blessings. i'm starting to long for time with Him and time to just be in His presence. it is the most incredible feeling ever. i never want it to pass away.
anyways, tonight matt read out of exodus 20 and discussed how the Lord desires to be our one and only, he is jealous for us. he talked about how Jesus is the bride and we are the bridegroom. also, in the bible the metaphor of jesus being the bride is more common that jesus being father and we being children. weird, huh. Jesus is the lover of our souls and he is waiting for us. we are all too much like prostitutes to Him. giving ourselves over to thing after thing...as He patiently waits down the aisle for us. it seems so different when i look at it that way. as if i am 'giving myself away' to self-gratifying things. lots to think about. we came back to the house and discussed the meaning of 'the old has past and the new has come'. do we really live like that? or, do we say we are christians and live like the world? carrying on the same habits and routines of the world? the girls gave me examples and struggles of their own that they think need changing. all things ranging from music, movies, gossip, sarcasm, jokes, etc. this weekend will be awesome. i just know it.

God, You are so good. You and You alone.
Meet us here as we realize You and You alone are pure in heart.
You and You alone desire us for yourself.
You and You alone are jealous for our souls.
You and You alone are perfect.
We are nothing without You and You alone.
Let us live in Your truth.