it's been too long. i feel like my life has been upholding a pretty stagnant state. school, study, sleep, work on occasion, school, study, sleep. i remember some really fun events that i've been apart of over the past few months, but i don't recall much more than that. that makes me very, very upset. there are times in life, we all encounter and remember every detail of them, where we are on mountain tops. everything is just peachy. life is at an all time high. everything seems to be 'going in our direction'. same type of thing occurs in a valley. except everything is at an all time low. everything seems to be 'going in everyone else's direction'. but what about when we are at the middle of the slope? caught between the valley and the mountain top? here it seems as if we are just 'breathing'. not gasping for air because we feel suffocated or not breathing deep, long breaths to not miss a moment. things in this part are just bleh. you're getting by without a lot of strife or troubles, but you aren't feeling overjoyed and overcome by excitement and thrill. what do we do here? how do we get out of this middle ground, this funk? i've found that for the past several months i've been in this weird place.
i didn't want to be here, but i suppose it's been easy to stay here. and it's been just a weird phase in my life. i'm not sure why, or how it even happened. i have become more and more aware of this phase over the past few weeks. it's time for something radical. it's time to make radical changes in my life. praying for God to restore the true joy of my salvation. not only praying and hoping, but believing He will do it. there is no shame in admitting where we're at in life or in our spiritual journeys--i think it's the perfect place to start our renewal.
so where to go from here? i know i'm not the only one in this journey...and i know i'm not the only one in this phase. i know many, many people fight these moments in their own lives. so how does one go about climbing the mountain. going the way that the devil doesn't want us to go? i guess i need to assemble some tools to go about this. starting with the foundation of truth, His word. His words will be my starting point, relying on them always. i must decide to fully surround myself with them. i'll begin with that. so, for the next thirty days i'll journey through the Psalms. we did that this summer at camp and it was incredible and i feel like going through them would be a great place to start....and they'll equip me with so many prayers. my hope is to keep this updated through most of the pslams i'll go through. trying to put into words things learned and milestones crossed in my own heart.
i'll close with some lyrics to a song that reminded me so much of the Savior who loves me, deeply.
"Living He loved me, dying He saved me,
buried He carried my sins far away,
Rising He justified, freely forever,
one day He's coming,
Oh glorious day!"
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