God's greatness.

as i am writing today, my heart is heavy. for multiple reasons. this week has been such a dragging week. tests and a packed schedule. it is like i only remember the stressful moments of this week. i have, yet again, pushed aside the one thing that truly matters this week. i have spent all week rushing around and fulfilling so many tasks. i am trying to prepare to leave for atlanta tomorrow and nicaragua on saturday. this is my first time i have been able to start preparing this week. i was rushing around the kitchen just trying to do some chores i've put off all week, and then God's crazy way of bringing me back to His heart happened again. i was just drying a dish and i had some praise music playing and God just revealed His love and tenderness to my heart. i was like, what am i doing? all week i have put these silly tasks above this, this peace of the Lord. so needless to say, i journeyed into my room and spent some time before God. just pouring it all out. i'm nervous about nicaragua, i want to be used. i realize in my weakness He is made great, so i stand before you all and the king of kings completely humbled by His greatness. God's awesomeness appeared again as i was reading first timothy and, of course, i read this passage:
1 tim 3: 16
"Beyond all question, the mystery of godliness is great: He appeared in a body, was vindicated by the Spirit, was seen by angels, was preached among the nations, was believed on in the world, was taken up in glory."

oh God, He is truly great. this verse was awesome for many reasons. it is so encouraging to remember how Jesus beat death. He beat it, and was taken up in glory. He overcame what i will never be able to do on my own, but He lives in me. the same one who was taken up in glory, He is here. awesome. the nations will bow down to Him. for me to be traveling to Nicaragua in two days to preach Him among that nation, i am pumped. so yeah--God is overloading me with His wisdom. He is so real to me right now and i have no idea why, but i like it! it is overwhelming!

not only through that verse, but with conversations i had yesterday with some friends. just remembering God's grace and forgiveness. and remembering how i need to cling to Him and obey. i also remembered what i blogged the other day...how when i confess my sin-i confess His perfection. i confess His majesty, His greatness. i am truly blessed this feeling has been made known to me by Him. so..in my weakness, His perfection shines on. i pray it would shine in nicaragua, to my city, to my school, to my family, and throughout the world.

now--i have to continue preparing physically, emotionally, and spiritually. i'll blog before i leave tomorrow for sure. but for now, i'm going to try and live out this stuff..which is a huge task because not only do i know God's power and greatness, so does satan. that stupid killer, stealer, and destroyer...psh. good thing Jesus was taken up in glory and overcame all that satan has to offer :)