"so i'm taking my hands and i'm reaching them out, and i fall down. for You i fall down"

so, it has been absolutely wonderful this past week. so much has gone on. so many challenges. it has been great though. well this past weekend i was able to be a leader for the international student day for south carolina. awesome. we met up at the zoo with a bunch of international students and took them around the zoo--quite fun. got to learn about so many different cultures. i got to meet people from colombia, thailand, moldova, britain, france, canada, australia, and some other places. so--it was incredible. and i was reminded by ken, the director, about missions. just something on my heart since getting back from nicaragua. even now, i've been starting to pray about next summer, 2011. just about where the Lord would have me be, possibly doing a foreign summer mission trip. who knows-where He leads me, I will follow. ken mentioned to us that by ministering to internationals and investing in them, we are reaching the world for Christ. which is so true. these internationals will go back to their countries one day, whether soon or in the future, and they will bring with them all the things they learned/experienced here in America. what a charge to us--to truly serve others and further the Kingdom of Christ among the nations.
--so this weekend was clearly incredible. starting this week i felt behind, like most weeks. lame :/. but, the stress of school is something i am trying to beat. i need to be responsible, but there are also areas in my life that matter far more than school. God is trying to build me and grow me, how can i ever put school above that? lately His challenge to me has been this...to have a quiet time or time with Him all day long. why do we always feels a fifteen or thirty minute time block is all we need with the Lord or really all we are willing to give Him. even then, thirty minutes seems to be a stretch. that's sad. so lately, i have tried to have my worship songs playing on my ipod as i walk to class and prayer something constantly coming off of my tongue. some days this conviction hits closer to home and it is all i can think about. other days, i have to remind myself of this challenge. i heard a song in Nicaragua that i had heard before, but this is really what i have been thinking about..that what i think about the most is my idol. and if something is my idol or many other things are my idol, i am not Christ focused. hm. just a challenge.
--heading out tomorrow to an international lunch along with some P90x at night. i know, i'm insane. p90x is so hard, but i realize i do need to take care of my body for the sole reason that it is the Lords and i need to respect it a lot more than i do. this is a very difficult thing i am coming to see...something that is definitely a large work in progress.
thanks for following up on my life as i try to let my challenges flow from my heart, to my mind, then to here on this blog.

"so i'm taking my hands and i'm reaching them out, and i fall down. before You i fall down"