He is jealous for me.

So, yesterday was quite a day. i felt completely overwhelmed almost the entire day. i tried to control my thoughts from dwelling on circumstances and situations i have no control over. the pain almost seems so deep sometimes. i am not depressed or trying to rant over and over about being hurt, but i feel defeated by my own mind sometimes. i try to focus on things above, but sometimes it is a losing battle. i'm trying to counter these thoughts and emotions by replacing them with prayers, songs, and scripture. it is nothing i can overcome in just one day-this HAS to become my new lifestyle. i'm happy i'm learning this now, but it sucks it is in the midst of many other things going on. so yeah-God is sovereign still. He is loving and comforting. He answers the calls of His children.

today will also be a busy and eventful day. studying, cleaning, laundry, errands, class, basketball! craziness! two tests next week. eek. anatomy and physiology coupled with speech pathology. intense stuff. last night was the Q&A time for the series how to have a marriage better than your parents. it was incredibly awesome. lots of wonderful questions were asked and i def. took away a good amount of knowledge. i knew some of it, but it is nice to be reminded and refreshed that marriage can be one of the biggest joys i'll ever have in my life. notice the, can be. i must passionatly pursue Christ and so must my future husband. praying for that right now. i know God will prepare me someone who loves Him more than anything. it may take forever and a year to find this person, but God is sovereign still.

about nicaragua. so, 8 days ago i announced i would be going to nicaragua and i needed 850 dollars for my trip. today i announce i only need 150! this is awesome. such a blessing. God has given me so much these past fews months. i feel so privileged to be able to work for His kingdom. yay! and the trip is almost a month away! yay! i cannot wait. been trying to talk to atleast some of the people i'll be going with. i know two. awesome. :) just feeling His blessings.

another new piece of juicy. i was chatting with a friend about growing closer to the Lord, she instructed me to read daniel and i started last night. you should check it out. perfect examples in that book: the Lord gives, and takes away. all is His. we are children of the most High and He is the giver. awesome stuff. humbling.