so. after my last post i recieved some pretty upsetting news. ironically, after all that stuff i wrote hoping to encourage you all i was the one about to require it the most. i heard news that really just kind of shook me up for a while. devestated me. it was exactly what i needed to hear though. a door in my life has been closed. i feel as if i can finally move past all this hurting and disappointment. i know the Lord desires me to get closer to Him, that is why He allowed this to happen. all of this has really made me think of the things i want in life. specifically, who i want to be with for the rest of my life. what do i even think love is? simply, God is love. it is only by TRULY loving God we can have love for each other; love that is not shaken or destroyed by the ways of this world. i must seek the Lord, my God in expectancy that He will bless me with this kind of love to share with someone else. more importantly, i must fall in a deeper love with the authentic love Himself. God will guide me. the road ahead of me still holds pain and hurt, but i am learning to relay that straight from my heart and lay it in from of Him. i have really, since Converge, felt led to memorize scripture. last night i found myself dwelling on this devestating news and i realized i had little to no scripture memorized. as i was driving, you know what i did? said john 3:16 and blared my christian radio up and started singing. trying to get my mind on things above, not on earthly things. so yeah-my life is not put together at all. i pray for peace and justice. we will all be held accountable for our actions one day, i'm just remembering this in moments where bitterness towards people comes so easily.
you are Lord of all.
you are the ultimate supremacy
you are sovereign, just, and merciful
you are the giver of peace
you are the hope of the nations
in suffering, i cry out to you
in pain, you are the healer
you will deliver me,
rescuing me from the ways of this world
hide me in your heart
draw me near to you
let me confess my heart to you
expecting you to console and comfort.
you alone are great.
there is none like you.
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Alicia,
ReplyDeleteI want you to know that this is something that I am struggling with too. I hope you know that you are helping me with the posts you are putting on here, and that i'm encouraged by everything you write. I have been going through a heart break and it does not make sense at all, and although it may be painful and hurtful almost everyday, i put all my faith in God that he will provide while growing deeper in love with him. Thank you so much for your blog posts. They are truly inspiring to me!
Have a great day :)
Dear friend, we should talk one day. God is doing so much in my life right now but it is kind of a big thing that i saw coming but didn't realize how much i saw it coming until God smacked me with it at Converge. lol. I love you and I'm so proud of how far you've come since break!!!
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